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Update: 8th April 2014
Apr. 8th, 2014 10:43 amI'm going to have a sale that I'm only posting on my personal account, now that I've completed all of the in depth descriptions of each of my collections, as I hope they've got some people here interested in reading more about them. Obviously I have stories at my website and I should be making a start on the first ebooks in the next few days, so they'll be available to purchase, but what I want to try to do now is build up my buffer a little more than I already have. Even though I'm normally very good at being the optimist in my relationship that doesn't mean I don't think about what might happen in the future. I'm just not the sort of person to let those worries get to me too much - I live more in the present than I do in the future and yet... well, I'm not sure who heard, but Peaches Geldof died yesterday at 25 (she was about seven months younger than me) and when those sorts of things are in the news it makes me think more about the future than I normally would. It happens whoever it is, it doesn't matter to me if they're famous or not, but as I was stupid enough to watch the BBC News channel after I found out, first thinking it must be some sort of hoax, it was something I went to sleep thinking about.
James and I haven't had easy lives. This is something I've talked about before. We had a couple of good days on Saturday and Sunday, but James had a bad day yesterday that affected him more than I thought it would. It knocked him right down again, so I'm more worried about him than I was before. Sadly, after everything he's been through, it's much easier than it was before for him to hit rock bottom and when that happens there's very little I can do to help, even though I try my best to, because he is much more of a pessimist than me. He keeps saying that his life has always been crap so it's always going to be crap, which really irritates me, as I feel that if he keeps thinking like that he will be right. The way you think can affect your life. Unfortunately he doesn't agree with me. Like when I tried to tell him that I thought it was possible his medical problems might have started in his mind, due to the stress he was under when he was younger, and now that he's not quite as stressed it's manifested itself as a physical issue. Instead of listening to what I was saying he just got angry with me, because he's been told before that other medical issues were psychosomatic and seemed to think that's what I believe, even though I believe that living with stress for an extended period of time might, in the future, affect you in physical ways. Of course it was just a theory, but it's not as though it doesn't happen to me - I've had more panic attacks in the last couple of years than I ever had in the past and if I get particularly stressed out I suffer with the most annoying side pains, although they normally fade pretty quickly.
I might just have picked a bad time. It was about 2am and he was really down, but whenever he gets like that he doesn't listen to me or accept that I'm listening to him, because I disagree with him. Something I've been trying to get through to him is that me disagreeing with him doesn't mean I'm not listening - it means I have listened and I disagree. There are times when I don't listen, that I accept, but that's normally when I'm in the middle of something and he doesn't bother to get my attention before he starts talking. Obviously I'm not going to be listening then because I don't realise he's talking to me until part way through what he's saying. There are other times when I have to get him to repeat things, because my brain doesn't translate it correctly, and normally, when he's not stressed, he's fine with that, because he sometimes has the same problem. Unfortunately it's mainly a problem when I disagree with whatever he's said or if I interrupt him. He really doesn't like being interrupted. I try not to, but sometimes I do, as I'm not great at knowing if he's finished something he's saying or not, in the same way that he sometimes thinks I'm finished when I'm not. It's not something to argue over and yet we often end up arguing anyway, when he's at his worst, and when that happens the ways he's acting makes me wish that I didn't have to deal with him.
Originally this post was going to purely be about the sale, but obviously I'm good at rambling. :D
Available for £90 ($150) I have 5 six 10,000 word story bundles. These stories will be written and sent to you via email in the format of your choice and then, after them being exclusively yours for a month, I'll post them at my website for everyone to see. I'll also be putting them into the collection ebooks and the end of year ebooks. Obviously this also includes donor perks and can be paid for in three installments of £30, which means you will get three months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 5,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those three months.
Available for £180 ($300) I have 5 twelve 10,000 word story bundles. These stories will be written and sent to you via email in the format of your choice and then, after them being exclusively yours for a month, I'll post them at my website for everyone to see. I'll also be putting them into the collection ebooks and the end of year ebooks. Obviously this also includes donor perks and can be paid for in three installments of £60, which means you will get three months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 15,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those three months or six installments of £30 which means you will get six months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 5,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those six months.
Available for £270 ($451) I have 5 eighteen 10,000 word story bundles. These stories will be written and sent to you via email in the format of your choice and then, after them being exclusively yours for a month, I'll post them at my website for everyone to see. I'll also be putting them into the collection ebooks and the end of year ebooks. Obviously this also includes donor perks and can be paid for in three installments of £90, which means you will get three months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 20,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those three months or six installments of £45 which means you will get six months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 10,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those six months or nine installments of £30 which means you will get nine months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 5,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those nine months.
I'd really like to sell at least three of these bundles, so if you know anyone who might be interested please let them know about this. Getting £30 a month means I'll have the majority of my half of the groceries (as I'm paying half the rent we now split groceries) and any extra means we'll be able to get some nice treats - I want to buy some fresh fish for James, because he loves fish, and I have no idea what I'd buy for myself, because I'm useless at buying myself food treats. I might use it for a couple of books instead, as I'm really behind on some of my series.
James and I haven't had easy lives. This is something I've talked about before. We had a couple of good days on Saturday and Sunday, but James had a bad day yesterday that affected him more than I thought it would. It knocked him right down again, so I'm more worried about him than I was before. Sadly, after everything he's been through, it's much easier than it was before for him to hit rock bottom and when that happens there's very little I can do to help, even though I try my best to, because he is much more of a pessimist than me. He keeps saying that his life has always been crap so it's always going to be crap, which really irritates me, as I feel that if he keeps thinking like that he will be right. The way you think can affect your life. Unfortunately he doesn't agree with me. Like when I tried to tell him that I thought it was possible his medical problems might have started in his mind, due to the stress he was under when he was younger, and now that he's not quite as stressed it's manifested itself as a physical issue. Instead of listening to what I was saying he just got angry with me, because he's been told before that other medical issues were psychosomatic and seemed to think that's what I believe, even though I believe that living with stress for an extended period of time might, in the future, affect you in physical ways. Of course it was just a theory, but it's not as though it doesn't happen to me - I've had more panic attacks in the last couple of years than I ever had in the past and if I get particularly stressed out I suffer with the most annoying side pains, although they normally fade pretty quickly.
I might just have picked a bad time. It was about 2am and he was really down, but whenever he gets like that he doesn't listen to me or accept that I'm listening to him, because I disagree with him. Something I've been trying to get through to him is that me disagreeing with him doesn't mean I'm not listening - it means I have listened and I disagree. There are times when I don't listen, that I accept, but that's normally when I'm in the middle of something and he doesn't bother to get my attention before he starts talking. Obviously I'm not going to be listening then because I don't realise he's talking to me until part way through what he's saying. There are other times when I have to get him to repeat things, because my brain doesn't translate it correctly, and normally, when he's not stressed, he's fine with that, because he sometimes has the same problem. Unfortunately it's mainly a problem when I disagree with whatever he's said or if I interrupt him. He really doesn't like being interrupted. I try not to, but sometimes I do, as I'm not great at knowing if he's finished something he's saying or not, in the same way that he sometimes thinks I'm finished when I'm not. It's not something to argue over and yet we often end up arguing anyway, when he's at his worst, and when that happens the ways he's acting makes me wish that I didn't have to deal with him.
Originally this post was going to purely be about the sale, but obviously I'm good at rambling. :D
Available for £90 ($150) I have 5 six 10,000 word story bundles. These stories will be written and sent to you via email in the format of your choice and then, after them being exclusively yours for a month, I'll post them at my website for everyone to see. I'll also be putting them into the collection ebooks and the end of year ebooks. Obviously this also includes donor perks and can be paid for in three installments of £30, which means you will get three months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 5,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those three months.
Available for £180 ($300) I have 5 twelve 10,000 word story bundles. These stories will be written and sent to you via email in the format of your choice and then, after them being exclusively yours for a month, I'll post them at my website for everyone to see. I'll also be putting them into the collection ebooks and the end of year ebooks. Obviously this also includes donor perks and can be paid for in three installments of £60, which means you will get three months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 15,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those three months or six installments of £30 which means you will get six months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 5,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those six months.
Available for £270 ($451) I have 5 eighteen 10,000 word story bundles. These stories will be written and sent to you via email in the format of your choice and then, after them being exclusively yours for a month, I'll post them at my website for everyone to see. I'll also be putting them into the collection ebooks and the end of year ebooks. Obviously this also includes donor perks and can be paid for in three installments of £90, which means you will get three months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 20,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those three months or six installments of £45 which means you will get six months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 10,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those six months or nine installments of £30 which means you will get nine months of perks and will add this amount to the site perks as well, so 5,000 extra words will be posted to the site for those nine months.
I'd really like to sell at least three of these bundles, so if you know anyone who might be interested please let them know about this. Getting £30 a month means I'll have the majority of my half of the groceries (as I'm paying half the rent we now split groceries) and any extra means we'll be able to get some nice treats - I want to buy some fresh fish for James, because he loves fish, and I have no idea what I'd buy for myself, because I'm useless at buying myself food treats. I might use it for a couple of books instead, as I'm really behind on some of my series.
