Aurora’s World: Haerith: Xavia: Making a Decision (part 4)

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This entry is part 4 of 33 in the Aurora's World collection

“How do you know so much about it, Randolf?” Suvi asked, her question one that Xavia had been waiting for and couldn’t stop herself from smiling at. “If Xavia has all those walls in her mind then why don’t you?”

Randolf was smiling too. He shared a look with her, raising an eyebrow as he did so, before looking at Suvi. “He knew exactly which positions we would take. Xavia has always been the one people look up to and I’m often seen as nothing more than her brother, which is something that I’ve never been bothered by, because I knew this time would come eventually.”

“You’re a Seer?” Hadar’s voice was incredulous. “I thought they were nothing more than a myth.”

“I don’t know if they are or they aren’t, because I’m an observer, Hadar. When I heard what was happening I knew what position our King would take and that, to me, made it entirely obvious what was coming.” Randolf shook his head, his smile having faded away entirely. “Our father thought the same as I did, so he begun the preparations for protecting those who could be protected. This isn’t the only hidey hole that he created, but, for now, it’s the only one we know about.” He sighed. “The real problem is that breaking down those walls, accessing those memories, might mean that we can’t get at them at all, because, as Xavia said, it might make her go mad. You see the magic that our father used is something he would only have dared to use in an emergency and as we had a horrible feeling that we were going to lose the war it was his only option as he thought it was important that we had all the information that we needed.”

“What happens if you do go mad?” Cyrus took a couple of steps towards Xavia and she remembered what her father said about him – if it wasn’t for the war he would have been a good choice if she wanted to take a husband. “How does that affect what happens next?”

Xavia did her best not to show how uncomfortable it made her to talk about what was the worst case scenario, although she knew with the number of walls that needed to be created in order to hide everything that needed to be hidden there was a higher chance of it happened to her than there would have been if they’d needed less walls. “If I go mad the only thing you can do is kill me, because I’ll be no use to you, I’ll be using up food that it would be unfair of me to use if that does happen, and there’s every chance that my magic will go haywire.”

“Our father prepared me for that. If Xavia goes mad I am ready to do what needs to be done.”

Even though it wouldn’t be easy, Xavia continued internally, knowing already that her brother didn’t want to lose his only remaining family member. Unfortunately they both knew he might now have any other option, because the likelihood of her magic going wrong if she did go made was scarily high, as it had already happened to family members before. Without really thinking about it Xavia reached out and squeezed his hand, wishing she could be the one in his position, because right at the moment it time it seemed like the better option – even though she knew it wasn’t. He would have to live with what he did for the rest of his life while she’d be dead.

Mirrored from K. A. Webb Writing.

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