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Update: 19th September 2015
Sep. 19th, 2015 12:31 pmI've been thinking recently about my writing. That's something I've always done a lot of, especially recently, and I'm coming to realise I'm trying to square peg myself. When I started my site I was planning on it being somewhere I crowdfunded my work. I'd still like to be able to do that, but I think what I'm doing is trying to make myself like other writers when I'm very different. Recently I've been talking about writing novellas, because I feel that's what I should be doing, and now I'm starting to believe I was wrong about that. I want to write about those characters, those worlds, so that's what I'm going to do - by letting myself be who I am as a writer.
The whole reason I started writing the way I do is because it works for me. Now what I'm trying to do is push myself into being like all the other self-publishers, who are doing what works for them, when I shouldn't be. What I need to be focusing on is walking my path. I need to stop comparing myself and be me. The novella worlds are still something I'm going to be working on, but I'm not going to be writing novellas, or novels. I'm going to be writing the way I have done since I started crowdfunding. I'm going to be myself, rather than the writer I keep telling myself I should be.
Making that decision feels like a weight off my shoulders. I know it's the right one to make. It has always been the right one to make, but because it seems like everyone else does something differently I felt like I needed to follow in their footsteps. I don't. I need to walk my own path.
The whole reason I started writing the way I do is because it works for me. Now what I'm trying to do is push myself into being like all the other self-publishers, who are doing what works for them, when I shouldn't be. What I need to be focusing on is walking my path. I need to stop comparing myself and be me. The novella worlds are still something I'm going to be working on, but I'm not going to be writing novellas, or novels. I'm going to be writing the way I have done since I started crowdfunding. I'm going to be myself, rather than the writer I keep telling myself I should be.
Making that decision feels like a weight off my shoulders. I know it's the right one to make. It has always been the right one to make, but because it seems like everyone else does something differently I felt like I needed to follow in their footsteps. I don't. I need to walk my own path.
