June is going to be the month when I get back to writing original fiction. This is important to me, because I think it's part of the reason I've been feeling so adrift at the moment, although I know it's not the whole reason. Even though Trevor died in March I'm still coming to terms with that. For those of you who don't know Trevor's my father and we had a difficult relationship. His death was unexpected, even though he was ill, so it's still something I'm learning to accept. I won't get any random texts, or annoying emails, or hear from him again at all. I'm not going to get into that too much, as it's not the reason I started this post - although it does connect. No one knows when their death might come and there's still so much I want to write. Even though I should still have 20 or more years to go there are no guarantees, but I'm one of those people who doesn't view spending an hour playing a video game as wasting time if that's what you want to be doing. Enjoying life, to me, is one of the most important things, and I enjoy writing more than anything else, which is why I want to be writing more.
One of the certainties I have is that I'm a very fast writer. I can write 10,000 words in four hours, as long as I'm writing a story I connect with. Even if I don't the base is around 8,000 words in four hours, because my lowest limit is 2000 words an hour, if I'm focusing on writing rather than anything else. My top is 12,000 words in four hours. Due to this I should be able to do the things I want to be doing - the problem is the distractions of life. There's doggy day care. There's James. There's having to look after the house. There's spending time with my family. All of this adds together to make it far too easy for me to lose focus on what I want to be doing around the ghostwriting. It's the reason I'm thinking an office would be good for me. It will be somewhere purely for work and nothing else.
The rest of this is going behind a cut, as I have spoken about all this before, so I don't want to bore anyone.
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